Steve Rebooted

“Hi, my name is Steve, and I’m a blogger (this is where you say, “Hi Steve, and welcome”) & today I celebrate my 1st day of reintroducing myself. “

Steve looks sheepishly around the blogosphere and wonders what he’s supposed to say next, with all these eyes peering at him.  The moderator, being the great spokesperson that he is says, “So, how long’s your blog been around, Steve?”  Steve hesitates as he’s one who always ponders the intent of any question directed at him.  In his life, people who ask questions are looking for something to hold over him.  Pretty pessimistic stance, but Steve has good reasons for feeling this way.  But Steve takes the chance and says, “Coming up on 2 years.”  There’s dead silence.  A level of comfort which means the audience is attentive and ready to listen.  However,  Steve is the kind of guy who rambles to squelch any sense of a void in conversation:

“Um, yeah, it’s been 2 years.  But I have been all over the place, trying to figure out my blogging direction.  Sometimes I’ve gotten too personal.  And some people have become angered over the things I share.  They’d want more details to back up what I said.  I had no idea that was required of me.  I’m not comfortable with that.  I regret sharing those things, cuz my providing more information beyond what I have, hurts those I love.  And I can’t have that.  So, then I’d take the ‘keep it light’ stance.  Then some people would say that obviously I’m hiding something to go from too personal to totally superficial.  Then I’d retreat from blogging altogether; taking a breather.  Attempting to figure out what I’m doing wrong.  But I couldn’t stay away too long, cuz blogging is my outlet for healing.”

The moderator interjects out of no where, “Take a deep breath, Steve.  I can tell you’re nervous.  Why don’t you start by telling us some basic things about yourself?”

Steve’s a little mortified that his ruminating mind got the best of him again.  Of course, why didn’t he think of that!?  Keep it basic, and build a foundation from there!  Don’t jump into the saucy details, without giving the groundwork first!  Duh, why didn’t he think of that 2 years ago?  But then Steve wonders what kind of basic information is safe to share.  Work?  Home life?  Family Stuff?  Dating?

Steve is interrupted by the moderator again, “Clearly you’re a pensive person as I can see your mind ticking, like a clock, all the way from the other side of the room.  Keep it BASIC, Steve.  Share what you’re comfortable with putting out to the universe.  If you get a positive reaction, than build from that point.” 

Steve takes a deep breath and closes his eyes, and then takes the chance:

1. “I’m a 39 year-old gay man who feels isolated.”
2. “I live in Baltimore and pray that I can get back to Seattle, A.S.A.P.”
3. “I’m a ’statement’ blogger; I cover a lot of stuff but have one mission.”
4. “#3 has a lot to do with family, and also, nothing to do with family.”
5. “I’d love to go into more detail about #4, someday.”
6. “I’m an ‘update whore.’  It’s the consequence of a pensive personality.”
7. “Once people figure me out, they’re loyal.”
8. “Loyalty of those in my circle may have to do with being a Leo?”
9. “I’m not stubborn.  I’m passionate.  It can be confused.  I’m proof!”
10. “I’m a contrarian.  Some see that as bad.  I see it as self-preservation.”

The moderator intervenes, “That’s a great start of a composite of which you are, Steve!  Everyone, let’s thank Steve for starting the process of reintroducing himself. “  In unison the crowd of bloggers from all over the planet says, “Keep coming back Steve, cuz it works!”  Steve blushes.  He doesn’t believe a word any of them are saying.  He obviously said too much, and they’re merely being polite.

Then Steve takes the advice of a popular and loved blogger; and cleans the slate.  He starts putting everything prior to this entry onto private.  Oh, and Steve is removing some links and stuff (following the advice from the best gay blogger who wishes for nothing but everyone to make love, not war).  What’s the sense of having a ‘topics’ section and a ‘key words’ section, right now, when there’s only one entry under his belt?  Also, he removed some pages, which he now sees as extraneous shit.  Besides all of that, he’s sure he can think of many more re-introductions as well as other writings; to keep people entertained, for years to come.  In closing, thanks Brett.  And thanks to all of those who aren’t mentioned, specifically, in this piece.  For advice has been coming in from all over the place.  It just took time to formulate all of the helpful hints into an action plan.  One which gets Steve back to the mission he’s had all along:

“Defying Despondency.”

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